For the first time in history, the pope has abdicated his throne, and he stepped down, mostly because he has not been doing so well in the health department of his life, but also because he is getting older. They chose a new pope today, and the white smoke was released into the air. The new Pope’s name is Pope Francis, and he is from Argentina.
I think today I realized how much stress I was going through lately, and I think i found the best way to relieve that stress. Lately I have been thinking how sad it is that people cannot look for the best in others, I think that it is such a travesty that they can’t find the goodness in their hearts to forgive, or forget. Even I have been in a nonforgiving mood toward my friend, I mean its not like I do not have a reason, because I do. However, that doesn’t mean i can act this way, I just cannot handle anymore the way I am treated by everyone, that Oh im gonna pretend you aren’t there and halfway through your sentence I am gonna interrupt you because apparently everyone is thinking, Anything else would be better that what this guy is saying. Whether its like I am the Schwa, or if people just think I am dumb or weird or something. I am just really, really done with the way people have been treating me…. I am so done. I just want people to notice what it is like for me, I try so hard to see things from everyone’s perspectives, but people seem they seem to think are stupid, or boring and that no matter what they do to us we will always be there if they need us, even if they push us to a place where almost everyone would give up. But I am not that strong, I have held in for almost two years, but I cannot take it anymore. I do not think that my friends understand how much effort I put into my relationships with them, but I… I just cannot try anymore. People always seem to leave me because they think when they get back they will still have me waiting for them, waiting to be rescued by them because I will always be there, but when I offer that to someone, that means that I really like being their friend and if they ruin that, its over. I think that you should value love as much as life, and value the people you love or that love you, but sadness prevails in realizing that you do not always give people the love they deserve, but, that is because and I am gonna quote this, “we accept the love we think we deserve.” This kinda shows what I was thinking in my last entry, that people do not care as much about the value of life, but I just compared how you should be seeing love that is given to you, so maybe we should all value everything so much more, and love life, as much as we should love being alive.
I know that we play video games now where you can kill people, or you get respawned, and I know there are a lot of tv shows that do not necessarily show life as a thing that is valued, or that we should value the life we have and the life of others, but all of these shootings have really started to make me angry. I mean, murder has been around since the dawn of man, whether you think its cavemen, or it was Cain and Abel, it had its purpose, and it is always sad to see someone loose their life and to watch the person who committed the murder either get away with it or struggle with the fact that they could have done that. But whether you believe in a God or if you don’t you have to admit that there is value in life, and in other people’s lives. It is the highest value of anything on earth, life is worth more to me than Gold or Silver, and should be worth more than Gold or silver to others as well. I would rather take a bullet and die, than let someone die who does not deserve to die. I value life and the life of others that much. I think that we need to start teaching about the value of life in schools and in the home. Whether you believe in a higher power or higher being, or not, you should still be able to admit that religion teaches a good value of life, and I think that it is necessary to learn about it in school. It should not be shoved on people to make them believe, but there is value in learning it, there is value in everything around us and I think religion is the best teacher on that subject. All of these shootings in the last year have really put it into perspective for me, I think that LIfe is not valued anymore, I think that with the atheistic ideals and ideas (that when you die, you are dead and there is nothing to it) are causing the problem because if you are just gonna die and be dead why live, you know why you should live, because every breath you breathe and every word that comes off your lips, every time your heart pumps, or your synapses work to form a cogent thought, that is a gift. Life is a gift. Whether or not you see it as the Expensive jacket or ipod that you wanted, or if you see it as the ugly sweater that your aunt gave you, it is still worth something, and it should not be taken lightly. Life is so, so, so valuable, you should not just throw it away or take someone else’s chance to live away from them. Whether or not you think it is the right thing to do at that time, or if you just want to die, life is made up of the good and the bad, your personality is shaped by both, and they are both a part of you, so do not look upon life as evil or dumb or stupid, look at it as though it is the most valuable thing on the planet, because it is.
The shooting yesterday in Orange, California happened right down the street from my high school, Orange Lutheran High School. The trouble was at the intersection of Katella and Wanda. The Shooting was a little scary because it was so close to school and I was a little on edge in the morning because I did not have enough time to sit and watch the media coverage of the event that took place, so I do not know that much about what happened, but I do know that I am really sick of the shootings that have been happening, I mean, the Guns aren’t the problem guys, its the people, and they do not seem to care much about the meaning of life or what life is worth. It makes me sad that they cannot see what life is worth, because that is something that I hold very high in my own personal hierarchy of important things and thoughts.